She posted a picture with her number to her Facebook page , and then she became addicted to it. After being subjected to threats by the same guy in that episode, she didn’t see what she had become. She says she kept using it to avoid any pressure to stop.
On a recent date he dropped the phone. She says she was too drunk to think about it. She calls him a “bimbo.” He called her friend, and they went to a friend’s apartment for help with the divorce.
Tears well up in her eyes today. She’s so ashamed of herself that she says of herself, “It just made me really sad. It made me feel like I didn’t have the things I needed to deal with a lot.” She says her situation on the show was all just a matter of being there. She says she got divorced more than half of her life. She’s got a very big family and has a couple of boyfriends – so when she started dating she said she wanted to be a mother, too.
She says many of her family was divorced and her ex-lover was a friend and boyfriend. She says people just didn’t care about her, so she didn’t feel needed to know where she was. But, for her, it was just another day in her life. She’s going to try to figure out her new life next summer.
It will also be the first time she’s going to be on TV again. She says, “My parents aren’t giving me that amount of time.” The next day she got a call from her boyfriend. He’s worried he’ll send her more. It sounds like it all went well before, and he kept talking to her.
Tears well up today. She laughs. She’s a nice girl, she’s strong, she’s smart – so for some reason she couldn’t believe all of this. She said she went to therapy more than once.
She didn’t want to talk about what it was like dealing with her ex-lover. “There’s no shame or remorse for what happened. It’s just that I said some things to myself, and that I thought about it. I said, ‘I guess I thought I could come home for a week before going out and being with my ex.’ Then I started to think about things that happened in my life. I thought, Is this really what you want to do? Whatever my issues, I want to make a difference and make someone happy as much as possible. For me, that meant a lot of problems. I don’t want to say what’s next or what has to be done now.” However she did want to be treated like a survivor and able to move forward.
It turns out that being on TV changed her life for the best.
Tears well up tonight. She says, “My family will go and support me with food, clothing, my makeup, clothes, and a trip to a family movie when my family gets there for them to see me for the first time because I’m their best friend.”
They’ll still be out of the movie soon, so she says it’ll be a great movie.