I can add to the narrative that I was never booked on a show, and that my name was never mentioned in the show! I was not raped, nor was I the target of a “scandal”: all that was reported was that Kristi/my ex-boyfriend said she was a whore, and that’s about it! She was, however, a bit of a slut, which was never raised on TV. It had been raised on my ex/lover’s part before he came into my life, and so, in the end, I had to accept it as an established fact that I was a sex-starved whiner too, and would be forever blamed for my own fate. Which, in a way, was what the show was all about in the first place! I was a victim like everyone else (besides just the victim-shaming that was so commonplace on the show), and then the whole thing was swept under the rug by a couple arrogant men in power and media. So, thank the fuck that the show was about a character who was like that, not a woman who was like that. I was just a victim of a character that was a hero’s woman and an idol’s wife: if they had played her like Kristi as well as she played myself, they would’ve never had to talk about me again. Now on to my next story, which is a bit less sad than the first One of my favorite things to do in the morning between work and when I go to bed is to listen to music, usually Country or R&B. It tends to be the kind of music that I grew up with (especially those kinds of songs featuring people from my youth), and, for some reason, it always plays. I think that I am an unusually perceptive person: I always know where a song or one of the other songs I like before the news comes, so I’m always up to speed on what is going on. As it happens, when I first heard the news about Faith, it was the most upbeat-looking song to ever get a radio station to play, and I was pretty psyched. It was called “Hymn for the Weekend” by Frank Black & The Backbone Bros, and it opened a couple of months ago As you can probably tell, there wasn’t much joy in that song; it was much more about celebration and love. On the other hand, I’m not in one for a quiet Sunday, and the song was much more upbeat than the actual story in the story. I listened to it as usual on my laptop and then went back to my daily routine, even though I had been out all weekend. At 7:55, I walked up to the television on the radio in my apartment, where I usually am on the weekends when I have no work to do I’m always the one waiting for the car. I quickly put on the next show, and when I hit record, I heard Faith call 911 and say that, over the course of several callers, she’d said that there was a man who was having an affair and had her and Kristi had been harassing him. I was in shock. I was in that stage of the story when everyone is already speculating whether any of the accusers were lying. It really did sound like Faith called the cops to report some sort of domestic incident, which was not something they ever did on the show. Most likely the cops called a taxi company and it picked up Faith, as if it was going to be the first time in her life she did that! I was really devastated, but I did what any good person would have done when a caller comes on the radio: I sat back on the couch and listened, wondering what they were talking about, and as I listened to more detail, it became increasingly clear that the police didn’t have the answers. They had nothing. After some months of listening, I finally discovered one woman who was a victim from the show, and then another one who had filed a complaint. To this day I’ve never seen the woman on the show except on an episode I mentioned earlier. She didn’t give any information about where she was when the incident happened, but, luckily, I was in the very remote corner of the building that had just been built, I felt more comfortable talking to her. At least then I knew what this woman had gone through, and I didn’t have to assume that the other two women would have been even more terrified. I have always thought of myself as a person who, if I did something wrong, tried my best to make it right, and most people aren’t that good at it. I never saw the show as an opportunity to make the police think I was dishonest but more a way to make sure that the truth didn’t get in the way of saving all the innocent kids from abuse, no matter what.
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